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Formerly Not So Much. . .the daily musings of a 26-year-old PYT whose self-love is superceded only by her obnoxiously endearing ability to remind you at all times just how fabulous she is. Guys too stupid to realize how lucky they are to be graced with her presence? Woman with 4-pack abs climbs onto the elliptical trainer next to her? Arrives at Chick-Fil-A at 10:37, only to learn she has missed her opportunity for a chicken biscuit? She throws all these setbacks off with disdain. . .after all, have you SEEN her??

Friday, June 11, 2004

Guys just deal with things in different ways I guess

After subjecting myself to a thoroughly irritating night with Boy Toy, in which he said and did everything to make me edgy and uncomfortable (when any one of 8-10 good-looking guys in the happening Thursday night bar around me would have gladly taken me off his hands, I'm sure--life is so unfair, by the way--last week, Keith-free, there was no one. . .this week, all kinds of elgible contenders!!), I finally had to have "the conversation" with him when we got back to my house and went to bed. It went something like this:

Me: Hey don't I just totally get on your nerves sometimes?
Him: Yeah.
Me: But you just like hooking up with me, right?
Him: Yeah.
Me: Ok, so this is pretty casual then right?
Him: (Pause.) Yeah, of course. What brought that on?
Me: You know, I just really don't want to be in a relationship right now. I've too soon out of one. I'm just having fun. I like you. I like hanging out. I like hooking up. But I think that's sort of all this is.
Him: Ok.
Me: I mean, what's your perception?
Him: Yeah. I mean, totally. We're totally in the same place, then. I mean, we've only been dating a few weeks.
Me: It's been more like a month. And I've just gotten the impression that you maybe thought it was going in a direction it wasn't.
Him: Why's that?
Me: Just comments you've made. I just really don't want to be part of a "couple" right now, and I'm comfortable with the ways things are. . .very casual.
Him: Ok, that's cool. Yeah, me too. I mean, I just wouldn't have said anything, so I'm glad we had this conversation.
Me: Well, I just wanted to be clear.
Him: Ok, yeah.
(Few minutes silence.)
Him: So does that mean this is the last time we're going to see each other?
Me: No. I mean, if you want to see me, that's cool. I just don't want to feel like I have to devote a certain number of days to you or see you at particular times.
Him: Yeah, ok. Well, you know sometimes people just say one thing and mean another (astute of him).
Me: No, I'd still like to see you.
Him: Well, you know, if you meet someone else. . .I mean, we shouldn't keep. . .you know. . .just let me know.
Me: Yeah, I would. Of course. You too.

Five minutes later, he was soliciting me for a BJ. Guys just deal with things in different ways I guess.

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