Have you SEEN me?

Formerly Not So Much. . .the daily musings of a 26-year-old PYT whose self-love is superceded only by her obnoxiously endearing ability to remind you at all times just how fabulous she is. Guys too stupid to realize how lucky they are to be graced with her presence? Woman with 4-pack abs climbs onto the elliptical trainer next to her? Arrives at Chick-Fil-A at 10:37, only to learn she has missed her opportunity for a chicken biscuit? She throws all these setbacks off with disdain. . .after all, have you SEEN her??

Thursday, May 06, 2004

Thoughts of a worn out mind...

Most kids day dream about doing cool, interesting things with their lives. For example, I have cousins who range in age from 8 to 13. In a recent family gathering, the adults asked my cousins what they wanted to be when they grew up. They're answers were...

Patrick, age 8 -- a "bug scientist"
Emily, age 10 -- a pianist or a ballerina
John, age 11 -- a professional motorcross rider
Brent, age 13 -- a writer
Bobby, age 13 -- a pilot

In hearing my mother tell this story and laugh about the prospect of my cousins becoming these things... a "bug scientist"? ...it occurred to me that I never had any such whimsical career dreams as a child.

When I was 3, I wanted to sell watermelon at a fruit stand because I loved watermelon. By about 7, I wanted to be a lawyer because... to be honest, I don't know why. I don't remember what prompted the dream back then, and now that I am a lawyer, I'm having a hard time remembering what prompted the dream even four years ago when I applied to law school.

It's really all I've ever dreamed of becoming, and yet... as I sit here thinking about what I'd like to do with my life, this isn't it.

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